| I'm so sad. simply that. I. am. sad.
I want to stay at bard more then anything and nothing i do turns out right. I am so scared. This same old college bullshit. why do people think the future can be detirmines. The future isnt supposed to be determined....thats why its the future.
I must do this. i must accomplish this. i must beat this
Crazy man on the bus today. CRAZY
goodbye all.
~edit~
my new myspace photo that WONT UPLOAD :( grrrrrr
night all
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| Hi everyone. I thought i would make one last entry before i leave for Nicaragua. Today was fine. it rained but i still got the stuff i needed. Claire and i had fun...it was nice
I'm going to eat my cesear salad now! 
I will miss everyone!
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| Sacre Bleu double tripple one thou! AT school i wrote this really great summary of my day and my feelings and daily observations but when i clicked to submit it, it completly erased!
Well today was another beautiful day. I love the Pink tulips that were planted on the way to school. so spring-time and dainty for a mostly asphalt enviornment. Your almost forget that your on the upper east side surrounded by highway :)
Today we watched Lord Of the Rings in Chem which was so fun! i freakin love that movie!
I sat in the yard and ate lunch with Olivia. she really is an amazing girl. Isnt it funny that even after 2 years i feel so comfortable and compatable with her. its nice. healthy. We just reminiced and i ate my nasty-looking yet good-tasting egg and avacado sandwhich.
I went to my orthopedist. HORRAY!! my back has not worsended and i can get rid of the brace pretty soon. THE BAD NEWS if it gets any worse (since he predicts from this weird thing on your hip) that i have about 2 or 3 more inches under my belt and in that time if it progresses i need surgury. bumma! but im staying hopful :)
On the way home all these weird memmories started flowing in my head.
the first was the night Anya and i went spiraticlly to see the bedford assholes (and i mean that in the best possible way) on the way home around 2:30 we jumped the turnstiles and as we ran we hear "HEY! HEY! GET BACK HERE!" ...... gah nerve racking. then anya turns to me "why is it that we happen to be the only people wearing m & ms for jackets?" it was great.
And then the second memory was of a much longer time ago. I was seven and i was in one of the courtyards in my building playing with my friend katie. it was one of those nights when its almost as gloomy as the raniest days but its only because of the warmthy fog of summer and the soon coming of nightime. We were playing 'find the treasure' i went running though the ivy along the walls when i came across an egg sitting cradeled in one of the ivy leaves. I felt like i had found the best treasure a person could find. we searched for the mother to make sure it was alright to take the egg. we decided that there wasnt a mother so i took it home i cradled it. I was devastated to hear that it would neevr fertilize.
im a looser.
the very best kind
LOVE YOU nice KIDS <3
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
that took a long ass time
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